The Last Page Of A Diary

“Njan oru athmavanu…… jeevan ulla sareerathile maranam kavarnedukatha athmavu. Ente dehavum manasum chithayil enna pole chuttu pollunu… oro nimishavum njan venthu kondirikunu. Imakal nanachu adharangalil chalukal theerkuna kannu neerinu polum ee chitha anakan patunnilla. Orikalenkilum maranathe mohichitillatha oralayirunu njan pakshe ippo ente chinthakalilum pravarthikalilum nirayunathu aa oru vakkum vicharavum mathramanu”

Alochikunundavum aranu NJAN alle?… parayam. Eduthu parayan vidham menmakal onnum illatha oru sadharankariyaya penkutti athanu njan. Alkuttathil sradhika pedan ishtapedatha, adhikam arodum kootu koodan istham illatha oru sadha girl. Ozhivu samayangalil thaniye parambil evide enkilum chutti karangi pookkalodum kilikalodum samsarikan ayirunu eniku ishtam. Onu eniku theercha anu .. aa nimishangalil njan anubavikunna santhoshavum samadhanavum vere engu ninnum eniku kittiyitilla. Valya valya santhoshangalekal njan ishtapetirunnathum aa kochu kochu santhoshangal anu. Valya pratheekshakalo mohangalo undayirunilla…Balya kalam eniku sammanichathu santhoshavum samadhanavum snehavum niranja jeevitham ayirunu - Golden moments of my life. Athu kondavum cheriya cheriya vishamangal polum thangan ulla athra strong allayirunu ente manasu.. … paranju vannathu vere onnum alla…balyam pole smooth ayirunu ente koumaravum… Sadharana koumara prayathile pranayama onnum enne thottu theendiyilla. Ente koumarathine njan Silver moments of my lyf ennu vilikam.

Ini parayan pokunathu ente irupathi onnamathe vayasil nadana karyangal anu. Aa kalagattathil eniku veetukaril ninnum akanu nilkendi vannu. Adhyamayanu ingane oru sahasam. Ethu sahacharyathilum adjust cheyyan ariyunna alayathu kondu ullil ulla vishamam purathariyikathe friendsinopam jeevichu ponnu. Weekendsil veetileku vilichu pottikarayunna enne kandu ente friends athbutha pettu. Ee janusil orennathine avar adhyamayi kandathavum. Athratholam veetukarumayi attached ayirunu njan. Ennalum ee pottikarachil friendsinopam cherumbol chiri ayi marumayirunu. Njangal friendsumothulla jeevitham valare rasakaramayirunu

Thamashakal paranjum, dance kalichum, pattu padiyum jeevitham aswadhicha oru samayam ayirunu athu. Angane njangal agoshamayi jeevikunna samayam. Angane irike ente jeevithathileku oru villain kadanu vannu…Pranayikan there thalparyam illathe irunna enne ippozhathe styleil paranjal valachu odichu kuppiyilakiiya oru villain. Annu avan ente jeevithathile hero ayirunu. Ippol njan avane visheshipikunathu villain ennanu.

Avante kannukalku entho sakthi undayirunu. Allenkil njan avanodu adukillayirunu. Churuki paranjal njangal thammil valya snehathil ayirunu. Pranayikan samyam thikayatha pole. Avan enne snehichiruno atho athu pole abinayichathano ennu enikariyilla. Abinayikuka ayirunu ennu viswasikan anu eniku ishtam. Oru suprabathathil anu njangal akanathu. Vyathyastha jathiyil petta njangalde pranayam avante veetil orikalum angeekarika pedilla enna avante vaiki vana thiricharivil avan ente hridhayathil orikalum maykan pattatha oru murivu srishtichu ennil ninnum paranu poyi. Orikalum sambavikilla ennu karuthiyathu sambavichapol thangan othiri kashtapetu. Ullile sankadam orikalum purathu kanikkunnilla ennu ahankarichenkilum aa chinthakal veruthe anenu kootukarude vakkukalil ninnum thiricharinju.

Eniku avanodulla snehathinte azhavum parappum prakadipikan eniku kazhiyathe poyi. Snehikanum snehikapedanum parasparam kanukayo samsarikukayo vendennu oduvil thiricharinju….. innum njan avane avan ariyathe snehikunnundu. Avante ormakal innum ente kannukale eerananiyikum. Peythozhiyunna ee kannu neer thullikal orikalum avante sneham theerthu kalayilla. Manasinte sparshikapedhatha udhyanathil nee innum undu. Orikal polum thirichu kittatha onnanu nee enna thiricharivu enne

vedhanipikunnundenkilum….ninaku orikalum thirichedukkan avatha vidham ninnodulla ente sneham urachu poyirikunu. Jeevikan ulla badhapadil, vegathayeriya jeevitha yathrayil oru pakshe nee enne marannekam, ennenkilum orikal nee sancharicha vazhiye pirakileku nokkumbol ninte kalpadukal sradhikuka…… aa kalpadukal thanichavilla orikalum………. avayil ente kalpadukalum pathinjirikum….athramel njan ninne snehichirunu

mazha ende kootukari

Mazhayum njanum kalikootukaranu,kootu ennu vechal njan pichavechu nadakkumpollee thudangya kootu.
Anooke njanum mazhayum thammil kootu koodunthu ende ummchyku ishtamee alllayrnu,njan eppozenglum mazhayodu kootukodan poyal
appol thudagnum vazhakum bheeshanayum.njan schoolil poi thudangyappola serykkum mazhayodu kootu koodiye,shoesiloke vellam nirachu glum
glum ennu sound undaki nadakkalayrnu ende pani,chilappol njanum mazhayum thammil vazhakidarundu orazcha njan pani pidichu
kidappavum hehe.ummchiyodu vangunna thallinde parifhavangl oke paranju theerkan enyku ake koodi undayyrnanthu mazhya,mazha oru nalla
kootukariya ennu parayan karanam undu,ende vishamanglilum santhoshathilum oru pole pangu cherunnu,ende kathy etra nerm
venelum kettu nilkum aval.Collegil poi thudangyappola njan sreddiche mazhayum enoodopam valaranirrkunnu,aval eppol sundaryayi ,vakkukalil
oru mridula bhavam...puthumazhayude gendam adyamayi njan sredichu thundagythum appol muthala.pinnee eppozoo njanum mazahyum prenayathilayi,nertha
mazhayulla rathrykalil ozhinja roadil koodi bike oodichu pokany ende thalparyam,eppol ummchykum endo doubt ullthu pole ,njan mazha nananaju varuml oru
chiri matrm,pani pidykandu nokikoo ennoru commentum,adhu kettu njan chirykkuml avalku oru nanam..

Chattal mazhayude sangeetham
manassukalil pranaya thudippukalunarthunnu...
rathrimazhayude kulirukalavatte
pranaya swapnangalkku varanam nalkunnu.

kalpanikatha thulumbunna kavithakal adikavum mazhayeyum, pranayatheyum kurichanennu paranjal oru pakshe athu verum oru athisayokthi mathramavilla.........

ormakalil ente kootukari

College jeevithile edaykappoloo oru bus yatrila ninne njan adymayi kanunnathu,pativu vaynottathindiyil mazhayil leychu
irykkunaa ninde kannukale kandappol oru kusurthy thonni ,eniitum ninde kannukal orykklum enyku pidi thanilaa.sathyatil
ninde kannukale anoo njan premichee adhoo mazhayodulla ninde istamanoo,ippolum mazha kanumpol ninde ormakalil njan nanayarundu.
Nee parayunne pole prenayam vakkukalil alla kannukalil jeevykkunu ennathu kondavum ende prenayam enyku parayendi vannilaa ...
nee engane arinju njan ninne snehikkunuu ennum engane nokki nikkarandu ennu..adyamayi nee enne nokki chiricha divsm eppolum enyku ormayundu
..pathivhu pole bus irangi nadanu vanna nee ende aduthu vannapol thirinju nokki chirichitu nadanu poi,alpaneratheyku ende swasam polum ninnu
poythu pole thonni..ende stop mari njan bus irnagythum urkkam varandu kidanu urnudathum eppolum orrkkundu,pittenu mutahl ende prephathangalil oru
mugam matrmee thelinju varoo,pinne ninne kanunnthu vare oru vingalanu,nee poi kazhyunna vaikunergl enyku oru varashathinde neelam thonniykum,pakshe rathrye
enyku ishtamayrnnu karanam urnagy enykkuml ninne kanamaloo,sunday endina holiday ennu polum alochicaa samayanagl..eniitum ninnodu
vannu mindan enyku kazhiyilayrnnu.Ninne kanuml thanne swasam ninnu pokunnna njan engnaya mindunnee,engilum oru divsm
njan vannu mindy endokkya mindaythu ennu ormayilaa pakshe ninde marupadykl okke eppolum thelinju varunundu.valenite gift ninku tharan vendyyulla kashtapadum ,ninde freinds kanathe nammla mindunnthum
ellam innale nadannthu pole munnilundu.ormakittatha oru karyam nammal enganya pirinjee,pettnu oru divsm muthall nammal akanu poi ,adhu kazhinju ende ormakal
ellam shoonytha matrm,endu kondaa njan ninne thedi kandu pidikathe ..aryilaa..chila suhurthukkale kaanumpol eppozo nastappettu poya entho thirichu kittiyapole thonarunde angineyoru mughamano nintethu ,ariyilla ,,,kaumarathil enikku nastamaaya ente kalikootukariyano ,,,,,,kaanamarayathu njan annuveshikkunna ,,,,kandethankaziyatha .ente snehithayano ,athum ariyilla aarane nee ,,,,,ethrayum kaalam engayirunnu ,,,,,,,oru sopnampole enthinu veendum vannu ,,,,,marakkan ethra sramichalum pattunnilla
valiya kannukalum chandana kuryum kanumpol thedi njan eppolum aaalkootathil alayarundu......